So, you've read the latest scandal about... well, where should we start. How about the angry ramblings of Mel Gibson? What about Robbie William and his ramblings, scandals and other weird stuff? Roman Polanski. Phil Spector. Tom Cruise. Just to mention a few. Why do so many stars succumb to drug-abuse? Or crazy behavior?
The answer is easy: When you have everything, nothing will be worth much. And if you can't handle that freedom, you will do anything to make something worthwhile. You will try your very best to reinstate value into the things that used to be valuable to you. You will hold on tighter to anything that will give you just a gist of the glorious past. Why? Because we don't know any better. We can only do the things we already know how to do, unless we change our entire being. And not many people have the courage to experiment with what the consider their core values. Even though most people realize that values are relative.
They actually see it in their lives as the pleasures of youth turns into silly pleasures. But if they can't find any other pleasure to fill their days with, they will turn to former pleasures and exagerate them. They will do more drugs, they will do more extreme things until one of two things happens. They either realize that they've lost their way in life, since pleasure seems absent. Or they will destroy them selves chasing higher extremes. And it happens all the time.
It's hard not to get what you think you deserve. But it's even harder getting everything you ever wanted. Because you will find yourself in a spot where you either realize that you never really wanted what you thought you wanted, and that basically all you work in getting it, was futile; or you will find that everything you hold dear in life is just as superficial as anything else.
And if they can not find a way to put value into their lives, they will turn to belief. They will become AA's, Scientologists, Kabbala believes, born again christians. Not that this will really give you anything but a way to pass time. Not because you feel it's worth it, but because you realigned you reality into a fight to belief. It's like pissing you pants to keep warm. You can keep pissing until your final day, and you will feel warm, simply because you BELIEVE and therefore have to struggle to maintain that belief. And beliefs last longer than any worldly good. But a belief is still an attachment that only works because you no longer know the object your strive towards - that's the genius of religion: They will never tell you that you found god or the higher meaning; they will only ever say that you can be better than you are. And so you find yourself on a path that never ends, because you basically just adapts to a belief-system that you will never get. Isn't that great: Finally a pasttime that will last a life time.
Unless, of course, you stop and think: What is true for me? But that would mean taking responsibility for your life. Religion is to put that responsibility on others and delude yourself to believe that someone else is closer to god, nirvana or Thetans (scientology).
You will always wind up with yourself and not one thing in the whole world will ever distract you enough from that place where we all have to go: To the mirror where we will finally realize what and who we are. And at that point, you'll probably be so attached to the way everyone else wants you to be, that it will be very, very hard to NOT be that person.
It must be the most awful thing that could ever happen to anyone: Getting exactly what you want. I know it was the hardest thing that ever happened to me, because I knew, without a doubt, that all the values i had was false. And I didn't even have half of what Gibson, Williams, Spector, Polanski or all the others have.
God luck, and I hope you will lead a curious life where you are in charge, not just a pleasant one where you outsource your life to someone or something else.
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